Train Wreck
It’s funny how I always tread lightly when entering into relationships but they still end up back where I started; single. Maybe my tread isn’t so light. Maybe, I look so far ahead to the future that what’s in front of me is somewhat blurred. Maybe, just maybe, I love to see train wrecks. Beautiful train wrecks. You know, the ones where everybody lives and the two main characters fall in love and the dude is no longer a complete joker and the female is no longer uptight. No? Okay, I guess not.
My point is, sometimes it’s not him. It’s me. As you can see from the statement above, I already have an image of someone coming in and not only saving me but also changing for me. Say what!? I know, I know. I can’t change anyone OR convince them to save me. I know what you’re saying; “Save you from what?” Save me from becoming Ms. Independent.
That is my biggest fear. We all have that one friend whose mantra is “I don’t need a man!” She has a t-shirt with those very words on the front and back (just in case you didn’t see the front). I’m not saying that being independent is a horrible thing. I’m just saying I’M independent not because I want to be, but because I have to be. I want to be willing and able to give it up when the time is right. I don’t want to be the “I don’t need a man” woman who always does everything on her own and refuses to allow a man to help her just because it’s not in her timing, or simply because she can do it herself.
I’m beginning to think that’s the reason why I stay in relationships wayyyyyyyy past the expiration date. Or maybe, I just like seeing alternate endings to the movie I like to call “Train Wreck”. To be continued………..
Are you also starring in this feature film? When was your last “train wreck”? Read, share, and discuss!
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